Wardrobe Changes, Adulting, and Other Life Things

After falling off the grid for awhile, I feel like I should talk about things again. I’ve been feeling pretty good the last few days, as if everything is falling into place. Apart from getting engaged (super exciting!) I’m just feeling really comfortable.

Work is going really well. I’ve even been less nervous about it lately. It only took a year…
I haven’t done much on the side in the way of photography. To be honest I’ve been trying to re-evaluate what I really want to focus on in that regard. I thought it would be really great to get into photographing fashion and cosplay, but lately I’ve been feeling really content with what I’m doing right now. I’m not sure I’m ready to do anything else just yet.  I guess I’m just so busy with my day job that I have a hard time committing to other clients on the side. I don’t think that’s such a bad thing, since I like my day job a lot. I don’t know that I’ll love it forever, and if I do stop loving it maybe that will be when I should start pushing for more. You know?
I do dislike the business casual dress. I’d been feeling, like, super uncomfortable in so many of the clothes I bought for this job when I found out I was hired. I stuck with a lot of polo shirts, or button down shirts and none of them felt very me.
Now that I’ve been working there for almost a year now, I’ve been getting more of a feel for what I can wear. I ended up going shopping with Tara yesterday and I picked up a lot of nice shirts that have a boho flair to them that are perfect for work. I feel like I’m ready to walk in tomorrow with a nice fresh wardrobe that fits my personality better. I’m really happy about it!  I got some pants too, and they’re boring big girl office job pants, but I don’t care about that.
I even went shoe shopping. I dragged James along with me for that adventure, since he needed sandals for the summer. Payless had their BOGO sale going on, so I made quite a haul. I hate shoe shopping, I know I’ve mentioned that I don’t shoe. But in this case, I really needed to shoe. Here’s how I handle shoes… it’s unlike most girls that are interested in the fashion world:
I don’t have a pair of shoes to match every outfit. I don’t have a separate closet that houses about a billion dozen and a half different pairs of shoes. I HATE shoe shopping. I have a type of shoe for every occasion and that’s the end of that. Although I probably have more shoes that go with specific costumes than I’m willing to admit, that’s cosplay for ya. But that’s besides the point. The point is, when I buy a pair of shoes, I’m super picky because I know it has to go with everything I own and it has to last a long time. Unfortunately, I started to realize that all of the types of shoes I have needed to be replaced. So, that’s why I walked out of Payless with 5 pairs of shoes. I needed new sandals, new everyday shoes, new dress shoes, and new work shoes. Plus I wanted a pair of gym shoes as well. Because I want to get serious about working out and I’m having knee problems so I figured something with a nice padding might help.  If you want to see a haul post, I can do that but to be honest I find shoes to be quite a bore. Actually, I’m a little amazed I talked about them for so long… Next subject! (But see, what a little wardrobe update can do for your mood sometimes!)

I’m pretty proud of myself though. Before going and buying all that stuff, I did get rid of clothes I don’t wear anymore. I’ve been trying to get better about stuff like that, cleaning and what not. I’m lazy, so I hate doing it all. But I feel so much more accomplished and even less anxious when I do it.

I think that’s all the updates I have for now. Back to the sporadic postings after this…

Although seriously, I have a few ideas. I have a cool and geeky DIY coaster thing to show you, and I’ve been thinking about posting my wig collection too. Plus, I’ve joined a book club so I’m toying with the idea of talking about books as well. I haven’t decided about that but stay tuned for the other stuff.

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-J

 

Rant: And This Is Why I Hate My Job…

Don’t mind me. I just need to rant sometimes. Warning…language and shit.

If there’s one thing that annoys the absolute fuck out of me.. it’s fucking grown ass tattle-tales.

If you are one of those people who has nothing better to do with their fucking life than to complain about customer service for stupid reasons, you can just unsubscribe now or leave this page because you seriously suck.

In this particular instance at my restaurant that shall not be named… a customer walks in seeming pretty normal. For the sake of the story let’s give her a name. How about CuntFaced Bitch? Yeah. That works.

CuntFaced Bitch asks for her double cheeseburger without pickles or some shit and without salt on the meat and a fry. Then she asks for an ice water. Now our drinks are self-serve. As in… you serve your GOD DAMN SELF. But before I can give her the cup she says, “just make it.” Not “please can you make it over there because (insert some weird reason here)” but no… “just make it.”
Considering that no one has asked me that before I simply asked if there was something wrong with the water out by the self-server station.  CuntFaced Bitch replies with a curt “no” and offers no explanation as to why she’s so fucking special that everyone else has to make their drinks except her. So even though there was a customer behind her waiting to over I went over to the drive thru station to type in the drink and told my co-worker I was making the drink for my customer and to let me know when it’s done. When I walk back over CuntFaced Bitch says with her stupid whiney attitude voice “do you have a problem with making my water over there?” I told her no, I was just wondering. She gets her food and takes the damn manager aside to bitch about me like I can’t fucking tell she’s whining about me. Dumb ass fucking bitch. She said I wouldn’t make her water and I just gave her the cup which is lie because obviously I made the fucking water for her. She said that when I went to make it I was laughing at her. Um Okay. Anyone who was up there when the incident (that shouldn’t even be a motherfucking incident but some people just have to pitch a fit over stupid shit) happened said that I didn’t laugh or anything.

So yeah. Thanks for telling on me like a little five year old you god damn cunt.

By the way, water is fucking free! You are bitching because “no one will make” your drink that you didn’t even pay for? Okay. You have some serious mental problems. Do the world a favor and crawl into a ditch somewhere.

Fuck you very much.

Bye.

Oh yeah, This Still Exists.

Gotta get ready to leave for class shortly, but I figured while I have some spare time I’d let you all know that I am still alive.
I know I update the pulses really often but it seems like I forgot that you can write blogs on here.

Work and school have been keeping me so busy that when I actually do have time for myself or friends, I don’t necessarily have the energy.  I’ve often been just going over to James’s after work (I’ve been working a lot of mid-shifts lately, which I hate) and vegging out until it’s time for bed.

My schedule is probably less hectic than I am making it sound but it’s definitely a lot more than I am used to as I’ve only had one night class a semester for the past few years. In fact, even when I was at school full time, I only worked part time. So this is the first time I’m doing both.

It’s nice to have something to do though.
Anyway, I’m alive. And that’s all I’ll bore you with today.

Oh hi. Stuff.

Yeah so it’s been awhile again. I always vow to myself that I’m going to blog more because I like to but never follow through. But I’m here now so I figured I’d update you a bit.
The last time I blogged I ranted about anxiety issues and such.  Of course not much has changed there but the fact that I’ve accepted it helps a little I suppose.  I’ve been trying to sell Micha which has been really overwhelming to me. She’s a great car. But after my grandma’s passing my dad inherited her Durango so my mom took my dad’s Escape and then my mom gave me her Explorer.  I was looking to buy another car anyway and was willing to pay for it. But they said not worry about it which is cool.  So now I have to sell my old Escort which means I’m actually gaining money out of this arrangement. I won’t complain too much about that. However since I’ve posted the listing on craigslist I’ve gotten non-stop phone calls. And I finally found someone who is buying (assuming he doesn’t change his mind) so anyone after that I’ve had to tell them it’s been sold. Which makes me anxious because my inability to please everyone makes me  unnecessarily anxious.  But anyway, once it’s over and done with I’ll feel better. And I’ll be able to buy a good camera so I can pursue photography/graphic design. 
Oh yes.
I’m unhappy with my major.
 <sarcasm>Which is such an excellent state to be in when you have one class left for your certificate.  </sarcasm. >
So along with that last class that I need I want to take an intro to photography class, and a three dimensional design class. Money isn’t an issue for once because my parents said I could dip into the “future” fund they have set aside for me. After all it IS for school. And I put a great deal of money into that fund monthly, so it’s lot like it’ll take a huge beating.  The thing I’m worried about is if I’m taking on too much at once. I’ll have three classes and work, not to mention the homework, and the fact that I do want to spend time with my boyfriend and friends. AND I just signed up for a gym membership (woo!) so there’s that too. It’s a lot and as I’ve mentioned before I can’t handle…a lot. But I guess it’s something I have to think about because I really do like school and want to go back.

It will help me with a future job and I can’t possibly express how much my current one irks me.. as @Tebor was able to tell from my angry tweets. 

Basically, I’ve been there for 4 years or so with no promotion, unless you count the “coffee specialist” thing which as a joke of a job title as it is. I’ve asked what I need to do to get promoted and I’m told “learn grill” and whenever I try to learn grill I’m told no.  I know plenty of crew trainers that don’t know grill so I don’t understand who I gotta FUCK to get moved up to crew trainer. Hell, I already watch the floor when managers go into a meeting AND I already train new people. So why not give me the title and the raise I deserve?! And to see that someone else (who I trained by the way) is going to be getting said raise and title, I’m livid.  I’m not going to say she doesn’t deserve it because she’s great and she does.  But the fact that I keep getting passed over for this promotion is making me beyond crazy!
Sooo tired of being fucked over.
endrant.

So what else to bore you with? Oh… not that I actually want to go to a doctor or anything, but I’m pretty sure I have acid reflux or something similar to it.  Due to the obnoxious “bubbly” feeling in my throat whenever I drink pop (which is rarely because of that) or alcohol, or when I eat spicy food, anything minty, anything greasy.
Took a Pepcid. Didn’t help.  Took some Tums. Took awhile but it finally worked.  I liked spicy food   But life goes on..

I think that’s about it. 
I’ll bother you another day.
♥Jessi Michelle

Chill Pill

I was the biggest bundle of nerves at work yesterday. I was already having some anxiety issues for the past few days and I got stuck taking orders all day long despite my dropping hints that I want to do something else. By the end of the day I was just waiting to snap.  And then it happened.  I had a difficult foreign lady come in and be rude to me because I was having a hard time understanding her. It wasn’t really anything the lady said that upset me.  I was just tired of dealing with anyone at all.  And I freaked out.  The second she walked away I deserted my register to go to the side and cry.  I couldn’t stop it from happening. 

I didn’t feel any better until I spent a nice relaxing evening with James.  We made burgers and had a beer while we watched Boy Meets World.  I told him about my day and he held me.  He rubbed my feet, and I dozed off for what felt like five minutes but apparently was actually a half an hour. 
I went home last night feeling refreshed. 

But I’m still not ready to face the day.  I want a week away from work because I just never feel like I’m ready to face the day anymore. But I can’t afford to take a week off work.

At least I get off at 2 today. 

♥Jessi Michelle

Random Jumbled Update and Other Thoughts

Alright, I think it’s about time for a life update. 

I’ll start with telling you why the last few weekends have been awesome. 
A couple weekends back James and I had a nice day together downtown. We went to Navy Pier and rode the Ferris wheel and saw a circus.  We thought those people had amazing balance and dexterity checks.
The next day, which I do believe was a Saturday, I worked and then went swimming over at my buddy Ryan’s house.  I’ve made so many new friends this past year all because of gaming and I always seem to have a blast around them. 
On Sunday my family and James’ family spent the day at the Indiana Dunes together.  I think it was a success.  Our parents seemed to get along really well and even our sisters got along with each other.  My sister isn’t exactly easy to deal with, so props to Elizabeth for putting up with her.  The day was a blast but I ended up with a wicked sunburn.  We went to Shaw’s Heroes game later and I was so burnt that everything felt colder than the dead of winter to me.
I woke up the next day thinking it would really suck to go to work since I was in so much pain. I got my ass out of bed to start getting ready and I realized that I was nauseous, dizzy, and I had a pounding headache.  So for the first time since I started working at McD’s, I called off work.  I was supposed to call of 2 hours before my shift. I rarely even wake up 1 hour before my shift so I was late calling off. I got written up as a result which I found to be ridiculous.  Actually I’m finding a lot about that place to be ridiculous.  I’m pretty sure I had sun-poisoning… but hey… ya know. McDonald’s is just so important. >.<
But anyway.
The next weekend was just as awesome.  On Friday I had myself a much needed Ali-day (aside from registering for my class) since I hadn’t seen her in awhile.  We went to see Vampires Suck.  Normally I’m not into the spoof movies but she wanted to see it and it had it’s moments.  I had a good day with her and then a nice cozy evening at home.
Saturday James and I went to Comic-Con.  There is just so much to see there… so MUCH STUFF TO BUY!  I’m excited for next year. I’m totally going again. It would have been really cool to have met up with Tebor but we never ran into each other. The place is big and pretty packed with people. 
I later went to the Scorpion’s concert with my parents, my aunt and uncle, and my cousin.  It was located at the Rosemont theater… so basically RIGHT by Comic-Con.  Convenient. It was a good time.  Music is pretty awesome when you’re right there in the room feeling it.
Sunday I worked and then went to see Scott Pilgrim with James and Barry.  I really enjoyed it and I want to get my hands on the comics it’s based off of.  Then we made our way to Heroes. 

So now the work week is (semi) over for me and I’m ready to enjoy another fabulous weekend. Tonight I’m hanging out with a few of my favorites.. oh how I love Tacs. We won’t be doing anything eventful, but it’s always nice to see them.  Tomorrow is a whole lot of errands and such followed by a short shift that I signed myself up for. Gotta make up the hours I missed when I was sick. Then it’s off to Davey’s RPG, which I’m having a lot of fun with.  My character, Lydia, is kind of a bitch and strongly dislikes people.  It’s kind of nice to channel my hatred for stupid customers into that character. 
When game is done for the night, James is spending the night and Saturday morning we’re going to this place that has bacon waffles.  I fucking love bacon and I fucking love waffles. Something tells me that this is going to be awesome.  Oh, and falling asleep in the arms of my awesome boy… yeah. That too.
I really don’t know what the rest of Saturday holds but we’ll see.  Whatever it is, it’s nowhere near work so that’s always good.

In Zune related news, I checked the service status on Xina.  She made it to her doctor safely.  Hopefully doc works quickly and she’ll be on her way back in no time.  Because I made two CDs including songs that I can’t live without but I don’t think they’re going to hold me over for too long.

Aaand school.  I thought I had class yesterday. But apparently I need to pay more attention to my schedule.  My class doesn’t start until next week.  At least I can go pick up my book tomorrow.
I also found out that I failed the class I was taking last semester… probably because the teacher was.. eh.
I guess I’ll have to re-take it.  I’ll still be done this school year either way you slice it. 

Other random thoughts? 
Well.. I’m getting really sick of living at home.  I want to move out so bad but I can’t find anyone to live with right now.  People are either still finishing up school, can’t afford it, or will completely drive me nuts.   And I can’t afford to live on my own.  If only I could find a roommate or two…

Well, I guess that about covers it.  Now I don’t need to write again for another month.   But who knows. Maybe I won’t keep you waiting that long.

♥Jessi Michelle

 

.:The Red, it Filters Through:.

On Saturday, me and a few friends and co-workers went to see Pat and Griffin play a show.  I haven’t seen them play yet, so I was excited. 
I had a really awesome time.  What I really like about them was that they’re what I decided to call a “music lover’s band”.  All the members of the band have their own favorites (along with similar favorites) from all sorts of genres.  But together as a band, they made all the songs their own.  Which is awesome for people like me, who listen to anything and everything.

They rocked, and I definitely want to see them again sometime.  You should check them out too:

Tryst’s MySpace


Monday was bowling night. I discovered that I suck so bad at bowling, that I injured myself by casual playing… kind of.  I don’t think my fingers fit the holes right (minds outta the gutter please) so whenever I released the ball it kept bending my middle finger back.  It’s kind of swollen and it hurts a decent amount.  Other than that, it’s always a fun time. I’m not much of a bowling fan, but I love hanging out with my friends, having a drink or two, and just goofing around.  They play music videos too, so we’re always dancing and singing and having a good time.  Too bad everyone’s going back to school next week, so we won’t be doing that for awhile. 

This week has been going by so slow aside from that.  I’ve been waiting for my work week to be over.  I still have to survive tomorrow.  Then I get to hang out with my nerds.  Hopefully we’ll have a movie night or something since I can actually stay out.
Friday will be a good day.  I’m spending the afternoon with Ali.  She’s a doll and I didn’t really get to hang out with her much while she was on her break.  It’ll be nice to get to chill and talk with her. 
Later on in the evening Tararara, Breanna Banana, and I will be going to the place where Tara got her tattoo she can get it touched up.  Meanwhile, I’m finally getting my tragus piercing. 

So that’s my exciting life right now, haha.

Here’s one of these things again.  I put it at the end so you can ignore it, because I’m sure I’m boring ya’ll with these.


Be honest; name of the last person to text you?
Lexi?

Last year this time, what was your relationship status?
Single.

What does the 1st message in your inbox say?
Text? It’s a Facebook status update from Rossipoo.

Whats making you mad at the moment?
Nothing really

How many radio stations do you listen to?
Pretty much just q101.

When was the last time you were in a car with someone besides family?
Saturday I think

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
No

Do you want to see somebody right now?
Kinda

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?
Nope.

Have you ever slept in the same bed as the opposite sex?
Yeah

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
no

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Doubt it.

Name one person you wish you could fix things with, and why havent you?
There’s no one really

How have you felt today?
Okay

Are you nice to the people you dislike?
Yup

Was this summer a good one?
Yeah, it was pretty good

Would you rather get a new puppy or a new car?
I like my car. And I like my puppy… I dunno.

You receive $50 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
Music

Where did you get the pants you are wearing from?
Cannot remember

Are you happy with life at the moment?
Could be better

Have you had any beer this week?
No, I hate beer.

Are you a jealous person?
I can be.

Do you believe that your first love can be your only love in life?
No. I would be screwed if I did.

Would you ever dye your hair black?
I did before, for Halloween. It was temporary. 

Have you ever received a call that made you cry?
Mhm.

How many times have you cried this week?
Nada, I do believe

Do you like to cuddle?
Yes

Would you consider your parents to be strict?
Yeah, when I was younger

Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about your feelings?
There’s a couple people

What are your plans for tonight?
Finish this, get something to eat, watch Real World, go to bed. 

This time last year can you remember who you liked?
I am pretty sure it’s the same person I like now… Maybe?

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
Yea

Who out of your top friends have seen you cry?
Um.  A few, actually.  But I hate crying in front of people

What color shirt are you wearing?
black

When you sleep on your bed, is stuff usually on it?
No, I hate that

What do you currently hear right now?
My sister talking and “Awake and Alive” by Skillet

What are you planning on doing after this?
Fooooods.

Are you gonna be home tonight?
Yup. In my bed.

Is your room messy or clean?
Oh my gosh, messy.  I cannot keep it clean.

When was the last time you had a real smile on your face?
Pretty much any time I am with my friends

Do you tell your best friend EVERYTHING?
Yeah pretty much

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
I really doubt it.

Is it easy to make you smile?
Yeah

Do you know anyone who doesn’t smoke pot?
Um, yes.

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
No

Are you someone’s best friend?
yes

Have you kissed anyone whose name starts with a Z?
I don’t think I know anyone who’s name starts with a Z.  Not personally anyway. 


Alright that’s it.  Goodnight.
♥Jessi Michelle